christmas.

i really have no feel about christmas this year. christmas tree? shopping? none at all. hurm. so lonely christmas this year. no spirit of christmas at all. it seems like just an other ordinary day. so sad. still remember last time, christmas is one of the seasons that i cant wait to come. but now, everything had changed. since dad pass away, mum do not have 'mood' to celebrate christmas as she will remember all those memories with my late dad and i am not blaming her for that. oh how i wish there will be a gift from somebody for me this christmas. nvm, i hope there will be more improvement for the next christmas. .